Life itself

Life itself is the most wonderful fairytale.
at the beginning of a new year we look into the mirror resolving to do things differently this year we will walk a mile a day repair a wounded relationship finish all the projects that we've started around the house filled with enthusiasm we feel ready to begin and yet we can doubt ourselves wondering will I keep my resolutions this year? but a new year is like a blank page just waiting for us to write our story upon it and if we write it like a fairytale where each mistake becomes a discovery each bend in the road an adventures then anything is possible in our new years story.

feeling special

Feeling special is a hard task to do when the world is so crazy and seems if it's all on you
Feeling special some people will never feel so many things happen to some know their hearts will never heal. If you have anything in life to feel special about keep it with you forever and never let it out . anything counts if it makes you feel good then by damn feel special because unhealed hearts wish they could...

white horses and brave knights

Are there no more white horses charging,charging, steady but wild-eyed. beneath white hatted riders splitting raw win, or roping wild tide? Do they still roam among us? but like Tinkerbell just out of sight unless you believe, and clap your hands? or throw pennies in a wishing well? I did believe, I did belive. I hoarded found pennies wished on a million first stars and challenged talisman you could not conceive but if you ride no white horse. If your hat isn't white then I pretend they don't exist. and to keep my own castle devoid of a white stallion and devoid of a brave knight.

My personality

There's a kid inside me
who's dying to get out
there's a woman inside of me
who no one knows about
there's a romantic there who loves satin & lace
there's a loner who wears a sad face
there's a daredevil who wants to have fun
there's a hard worker who tries her best to
get things done.
All of these people are inside of me and they
are who I am they are "my Personality"

What can I say i'm me

I am ME. I am complicated and outgoing. Sweet at times but very bad as well.I'm a Capricorn...you really don't know what you are going to get at that moment...so watch out! Don't sweat the small things in life, don't let others bring you down. Words are the worst weapon in the world, so pick them carefully. Society treats us like cattle, walk your own line, look outside the box. Live today like it's I am ME. I am complicated and outgoing. Sweet at times but very bad as well.I'm a Capricorn...you really don't know what you are going to get at that moment...so watch out! Don't sweat the small things in life, don't let others bring you down. Words are the worst weapon in the world, so pick them carefully. Society treats us like cattle, walk your own line, look outside the box. Live today like it's your last. Love like you have never loved before...you never know when it can be taken from you. Love and hate go hand and hand...to truly love you must know hate. Some think I'm cold,maybe I'm just a scared little girl. I don't wanna hurt...but I have. WOW have I learned lessons..and I'm still learning...no one is perfect...not even close. Accept me for who I am..if you judge me, then I don't need to know you. Negative energy brings you down. Surround yourself with positive thoughts even if they are dark. Try not to look back...something I am guilty of doing many times. The ocean sets me free. The sun warms my senses. The wind on my face makes me feel alive. I have verbal diarrhea..yea, it's a problem, lol. My style changes week to week. My hair is a different color every six months. Uh, yeah...you could say it's hard for me to be content. I love music, it drives me, ...being naked brings us back to our core. don't be scared. Smile at someone less fortunate than you everyday. Help others, be there for your friends and family no matter what. Tell me if I'm being a fuck-up or an ass, don't be fake with me. I have made my share of mistakes...uh..yeah, lots! Live and learn..and live some more! Never take for granted your health...cherish it everyday. I have lived, I have died...reincarnation is amazing. Truly listen when someone speaks. Always express yourself, screw what others think! Be you! I have been a free spirit my whole life....some guidance would be nice, witchery is amazing. My animals are my babies. Laugh, play, cry, feel, experience..never have to say "what if". Make memories..dream...but then make it happen. Fate, desire, greed, pain, love, loss, lust, guilt..surround us..feel it, then break free. Vampires allure me...I will bite you...I will taste you...I wil remember you. Writing is my outlet. Don't take anything too serious. I always laugh at myself. Im goofy, nutty, silly...always got my bag of tricks! I love to play..even though I sometimes don't play well with others, All and all I'm a down to earth chick that likes all that life brings me, good and bad.. .It's a rollor coaster baby...and I'm on a crazy ride! Go to your destiny...one day we will only exist in fairytales. your last. Love like you have never loved before...you never know when it can be taken from you. Love and hate go hand and hand...to truly love you must know hate. Some think I'm cold,maybe I'm just a scared little girl. I don't wanna hurt...but I have. WOW have I learned lessons..and I'm still learning...no one is perfect...not even close. Accept me for who I am..if you judge me, then I don't need to know you. Negative energy brings you down. Surround yourself with positive thoughts even if they are dark. Try not to look back...something I am guilty of doing many times. The ocean sets me free. The sun warms my senses. The wind on my face makes me feel alive. I have verbal diarrhea..yea, it's a problem, lol. My style changes week to week. I change cars like I change panties...which are always hanky panky, you know it! My hair is a different color every six months. Uh, yeah...you could say it's hard for me to be content. I love music, it drives me, ...being naked brings us back to our core. don't be scared. Smile at someone less fortunate than you everyday. Help others, be there for your friends and family no matter what. Tell me if I'm being a fuck-up or an ass, don't be fake with me. I have made my share of mistakes...uh..yeah, lots! Live and learn..and live some more! Never take for granted your health...cherish it everyday. I have lived, I have died...reincarnation is amazing. Truly listen when someone speaks. Always express yourself, screw what others think! Be you! I have been a free spirit my whole life....some guidance would be nice, witchery is amazing. My animals are my babies. Laugh, play, cry, feel, experience..never have to say "what if". Make memories..dream...but then make it happen. Fate, desire, greed, pain, love, loss, lust, guilt..surround us..feel it, then break free. Vampires allure me...I will bite you...I will taste you...I wil remember you. Writing is my outlet. Don't take anything too serious. I always laugh at myself. Im goofy, nutty, silly...always got my bag of tricks! I love to play..even though I sometimes don't play well with others, All and all I'm a down to earth chick that likes all that life brings me, good and bad.. .It's a rollor coaster baby...and I'm on a crazy ride! Go to your destiny...one day we will only exist in fairytales.

Things I wanna do in my lifetime

Eat a cheeseburger in paradise
Gaze upon a magnificent waterfall
Explore a Rain Forest
Sip a mint julep at the Kentucky Derby
Swim with the dolphins
Drive a NASCAR race car (even at 20 mph in pit lane lol)
Make a difference in someone’s life
Be in love
Forgive myself
Be a great Mom
Send a message in a bottle
Disneyworld
Start my own Photography business
Drive as much of the original Route 66 as possible
Smell the ocean on a cruise
Learn to rollerblade
bury a time capsule
a trip to the Chestnut Hill Baptist Church cemetery and the gravesite of Mercy Brown.(americas most famous vampire)

My crazy self

I am my father's daughter there's no doubt about it I drive to fast but don't really care I have the most amazing friends they always know what to say I am the most giving yet most selfish person at the same time I can be the nicest person yet your worst enemy I have a past a worst past than most I am competitive and love to argue I'm the girl who will play in the dirt and mud all day turn around and wow you at a 5 star meal and no could tell the difference basically im a country girl with a city side I hate to be alone im my worst enemy I love my family and friends more than you ever could love yours lol trust me a lot of people mistake me for a bitch I'm not but can be if you hurt those I care about. My daughter is the only one that has enough of me to break my heart.
I love the summer if there was such a thing as a clean beach bum I'd be it in a heartbeat but at the same time I wish it could be christmas all year round. I am attached to my phone 24/7 makes me feel connected when I'm disconnected from myself.

What you need to know about me

What you need to know about me:
I may not be perfect
I may over react and some times cry for no reason
I fight for what I believe in
I am weak at times
I like to dress up
I love shoes and accessories
I am passionate about everything
I love with all my heart
I don’t give up on what’s important to me
I get jealous sometimes, but what girl doesn't
I love kisses and hugs from that special person
I love watching kids grow into amazing people
I get scared after watching a scary movie
I sleep with the lights on and music playing
I can be vulnerable and impressionable
I don’t believe that money makes you happy, love does
I may not always talk about something right away
I am honest and sincere
I make mistakes and wish I could take them back
I don’t always think some things through
I love swinging in the park
I believe that family will never let you down
I know what I want from my life and will not take no for an answer

I know in my heart, that love will make it through rain or shine
I am me…and that's all I will ever be

Be the best you can

Be The Best You Can
Speak and you will be heard,
make your words kind.
Love kindly and unselfishly,
with no wish to possess.
Search for who you are
and for what matters.
Give freely to all
and you shall receive
so much more.
Listen to the troubles of others
and your own shall be halved.
Live each day as your last,
treasuring each sight and sound.
Accept what you have
and all that is freely given.
Strive to be greater than
you were before.
Ask and even your smallest wish
will be granted.
Dream of what can be -
a world of peace and beauty
for all to share.

words to live by

If you want your dreams to come true,
don't oversleep.
The smallest good deed is better
than the grandest intention.
Of all the things you wear,
your expression is the most important.
The best vitamin for making friends,B1.
The 10 commandments are not multiple choice.
The happiness of your life
depends on the quality of your thoughts.
Minds are like parachutes,
they function only when open.
Ideas won't work unless YOU do.
One thing you can't recycle is wasted time.
One who lacks the courage
to start has already finished
The heaviest thing to carry is a grudge.
Don't learn safety rules by accident.
We lie the loudest when we lie to ourselves.
Jumping to conclusions can be bad exercise
A turtle makes progress
when it sticks its head out.
One thing you can give and still keep,
is your word.
A friend walks in when everyone else walks out.
AND FINALLY...
The pursuit of happiness is the chase of a lifetime!!!

Things to do before 45

~Body Paint a room.
~Bar + paint + blacklight = fun
~Wrestle in chocolate pudding.
~Squish grapes with feet and maybe make wine/juice.
~Balloon war filled with paint.
~Body smores, fluff + chocolate syrup + gramham grackers = yummy
~Have a foam sword fight.
Go to a vampire/gothic masquerade.
~Act out an RPG video game.
~Be duck taped to the wall.
~Buy a large amount of long bubble wrap and wrap self in it and roll around.
~Buy the slip and slide thing and use whip cream to slide down.

Wired

IT'S A STRANGE DESIRE... BUT AN INFLICTING WOUND. THIS IS HOW I'M WIRED. I am DEEPER than you think. If you would like to contradict me, I'm game. I can most likely figure you out within 5 minutes of having a conversation with you. I hunger to be an obstruction of your mind. I thirst for you to figure me out. You have now entered my masquerade. You can uncover your facade. I believe myself to be genuine and I would never betray the ones I love. I value my family and those who are REAL. I like to be fascinated by the anomalous. I am constantly thinking and I love to write poetry. I have Loved... Lost... and Learned. The three things that every soul should feel. I yearn for those that put a smile on my face. I crave for the one that will give to me what I will give back. I do not belong in anyone's Virus. Satisifaction is found on my own. Don't Lust for what you See... Desire what you know.

A woman's life

I have to shave my legs, I sit to pee, and I can justify any shopping spree I don't go to a barber I go to a salon
I can get a massage without a hard on or a happy ending (like men need)
I can pump my own gas
I can talk to my friends about the size of my ass.
My beauty's a masterpiece and yes it takes a bit to achieve it in the mornings.
I can admit to others when i'm wrong I don't drive in circles at any cost and I
don't have a problem admitting i'm lost ( I will stop any car or emergency vechicle to ask for help)
I never forget an important date ( I have a calendar on my phone and facebook lol)
I don't need instant replay to remember the score cause i'm that football girl lol
I won't lose my hair I don't get jock itch and just cause i'm assertive doesn't make me a bitch
and please don't say to your friends oh yea i can get her or i can hit that (cause your going home with just your hand lol)
jewelry is ok flowers are best cause flowers are from the heart to me and they are living jewerly most likely was picked out by your secretary while your rolling around with your mistress .
look at me guess what I have green eyes ( and my shirt doesn't have a design so you must be looking at my size c's)
I don't have a problem with expressing my feelings i know when your lying you look at the ceiling don't call me girl,babe,or chick. I am woman get it
you dick..

Letting go

LETTING GO
"To "let go" doesn't mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for
someone else.
"
"To "let go" is not to cut myself off, it's the realization I can't
control another.
"
"To "let go" is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural
consequences.
"
"To "let go" is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is
not in my hands.
"
"To "let go" is not to try to change or blame another, it's to make
the most of myself.
"
"To "let go" is not to care for, but to care about.
"
"To "let go" is not to fix, but to be supportive.
"
"To "let go" is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human
being.
"
"To "let go" is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own destinies.
"
"To "let go" is not to be protective, it's to permit another to face
reality.
"
"To "let go" is not to deny, but to accept.
"
"To "let go" is not to nag, scold, or argue, but instead to search
out my own shortcomings and correct them.
"
"To "let go" is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take
each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
"
"To "let go" is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the
future.
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"To "let go" is to fear less and love more.

moods of me

An angel of truth & a dream of fiction
A bundle of contradiction afraid of a wasp, will scream at a mouse.
But will tackle my lover alone in my house.
Sour as vinegar, sweet as a rose
kiss you 1 minute then turn up my nose the next
I'll win you in rage
enchant you in silk.
I'll be stronger than whiskey ,milder than milk at times be vengeful, merry or sad.
I hate like poison but love like mad..

A woman should know/have

One old love she can imagine going back too.
and one who reminds her how far she has come.
enough money within her account to move out and rent a place of her own even she
never wants or needs too.
something perfect to wear if an employer or dreamdate wants to see her in 1 hour.
a youth she’s content to leave behind.
a past juicy enough that she is looking forward to retelling in her old age.
a set of screwdrivers,cordless drill and a lacy black bra.
one friend who always makes her laugh and one that lets her cry.
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family.
8 matching plates,wine glasses with stems and a recipe for a meal that will make her guests feel honored.
a feel of control over destiny.
how to quit job
break up with a lover
confront a friend
without ruining the friendship and how to change a tire
when to try harder and when to walk away
that she can’t change
the length of her calves
the width of her hips.or the nature of her parents.
that her childhood wasnt perfect but at least
it’s over.
what she would or wouldn’t do for love or more.
how to live alone even if she doesn’t like it.
whom she can trust whom she can’t
and why she shouldn’t take it personal.
where to go be it her best friends kitchen or a charming inn when her soul need soothing.
what she can or can’t accomplish in a day a month or a year..